july update

It’s kind of sad since I’ve last been on here. So much has happened but to be completely honest- with my pregnancy and having a baby, I just didn’t have the time or energy. i’ve definitely missed it. I miss the sweet girls who would comment on my posts giving me feedback, or the late night text messages I would get from old friends or acquaintances saying how they loved a certain post. i miss the way I was able to connect with all kinds of kindred souls. For some reason, I just don’t have that kind of community on Instagram. I did at first, when Bryleigh was a newborn… then it faded. Maybe it’s because im not as open and straightforward on Instagram as I am on my blog. Or sometimes I am, and I go back and delete them because I think “nobody cares about how I feel now that im a mother.. this is just clutter” so I erase the posts where I once wrote my feelings on. A lot of it is also that I feel like people wont understand my sarcasm, or that ill unintentionally offend somebody. It’s almost like i care so much what others think, that I’ve lost my voice. And it makes me incredibly sad. Because as many of you mommies know, you lose part of yourself when you have a baby. . you lose your pre-pregnancy body, your time, some of your hobbies, most of your energy, and sometimes within all that you lose yourself too. that’s why I think it’s so important to never lose your voice. Whether it’s through a journal, social media, a blog, or whatever it is that makes YOU feel like you.. keep doing it. Always find time for it. Because when you take good care of YOU, you are able to take good care of others. That being said, I am planning on coming back. slowly but surely! I have a couple things planned, and if anyone else has any ideas, feel free to leave a comment down below. I hope everyone had a great weekend!